just know that you are not in these things alone.

"sometimes silence can seem so loud" - r kelly

to some extend, i would say that i'm so use to this "loneliness".

why "loneliness" instead of just loneliness? my point is that, the meaning of the word is ambiguous.
interpret it yourself.

tomorrow is the beginning of the 2nd Internal Assessment with the first paper, ANATOMY. i lie if i say i'm not stress. the pressure is here, there and everywhere.

nak mengadu dekat mak abah, tak mahu risaukan mereka.
nak mengadu dekat alang, kang die kate aku gelabah. *ego sungguh*.
nak mengadu dekat kawan, semua pon dalam situasi yang sama.

maka..

"... Hanya kepada ALLAH aku mengadukan kesusahan dan kesedihanku...." - Yusuf (12): 86

sesungguhnya Dialah sebaik2 sandaran dan sebaik2 penolong.

all the best my friends. just know that you are not in these things alone.

we gotta fight fight fight fight for this exam!

:)

je t'aime

i'm not saying this as if i would like to "sedapkan hati sendiri"

but this is how i feels right now

"one of the most exciting thing about being single is that we will have tonnes of chances to meet someone new and of course, another chance to fall in love again. :) well, you know how good it feels to fall in love right? but it also means that we will also face tonnes of opportunity to be hurt.. but life itself is a risk, so why bother? haha"

all the best to you people who are already in love.. me? i nak pergi memancing kejap~ :)

sakit rumah

anda anda dan anda mungkin memandang saya sebagai seorang yang "cool"

"cool" di sini membawa maksud lepak sahaja tak gelabah, agak heartless, relax2 je..

ah, PLASTIC je sume tu..

but the truth is, I'm damn fragile.. well, at least my heart is..

i just don't know why, but i just cant stop this tears from flowing out of my lacrimal gland..

i miss home so bad.. so bad that i don't even feel like eating.. I've been skipping meals.. not eating for about 2 days just a bite or two of bread n nuttella.. though the "orchestra" was there in my stomach, still i did not have the appetite to eat..

and so bgn2 tido je terus call mak..

bla3... then..

mak: eh kenape cek menangis ni?

me: mak, cek homesick.. rindu rumah.. rindu mak.. sgt2.. isk2..(sambil teresak2)

mak: sabarlah syg.. mmgla rindu bile dah jauh.. mak pon rindu jugak.. dah lame tak tgk anak mak yang sorg ni.. sabar ok? tak lama lagi tu.. banyak2kan doa je.. sabar.. bape bulan je lg before nak balik.. tiket pon dah beli kan.. tinggal nak tggu masa nak balik je.. sabar ok..

pathetic kan aku neh? lembik gile.. korang2 sume tak rase mcm aku? aku sorang je ke? alaaaaaaa.... ye aku sgt manja.. sorry.. aku mmg anak mak n abah.. mengade.. itulah aku.. aku tak pernah rase homesick tahap nak pengsan mcm ni .. maybe sebab nak exam jugak kot.. so aku serabut.. otak kosong.. u people out there, tell me, teach me how to be strong..

ya Allah..

tolonglah kuatkan hati dan semangat aku.. aku tak tawu kenapelah aku lemah sangat..
tapi sedar sememangnya hakikat penciptaan manusia itu lemah.. dan tiada yang lebih kuat dan berkuasa melainkan Allah..

"La hawla wala quwwata illa billaah (There is no might and power but that of Allah)."

so..

yeah, i guess i should live up to my name given by my mother

FARIHAH AZWA

farihah = joyful, happy, glad
azwa = splendour, limelight

therefore.. I AM THE SPLENDOUR OF HAPPINESS.

abah, sorry tak makan nasi dah dua hari dah.. abah slalu pesan makan nasi la at least skali sehari sbb nasi banyak tenaga. cek degil.

mak, sorry sbb nanges lagi.. asyik nanges je.. sian mak risau.



" nothing can bring you peace but yourself" - Ralph Aldo Emerson

and yeah, of course dengan izin Allah.. :)


-w@w@-

bonjour~

ok. lupe nak welcome u ollz~ huhu

i know i just put up the link for this new blog at my facebook page.. and u ollz mesti akan klik punye kan2.. i tau la nyah~ haha

ok. so welcome.

feel free to leave any comment.

nak kutuk ke maki hamn ke puji melambung2 ke ape ke sila2.

mak tak kesah pon nyah~ mak skarang telan je semua.

ok u ollzzz~ i pergi dulu eyh~

i know u love me, x0x0, plastic girl~

mereng dan kering

ok. aku bosan.

aku update byk gile post hr ni..

otak aku mereng
hati aku kering
poket pon kering
kulit pon kering
aku pon kurus kering
(mcm org tak cukup zat)
bangalore ni pon kering
(berbulan2 tak hujan)

btw, bosan gile layout blog nih kan? mcm aku kan?

mls la nak kasi fancy2.. nnt la
otak mereng, idea kering

air mata aku pon dah kering. sbb hr ni aku asyik nanges sbb aku kene severe allergy.. abes satu bdn naik bintat2 mcm kene geget nyamuk.. scary siot. kaki aku bengkak mcm belon tak boleh pijak lantai. merah.gatal. sakit mcm kene cucuk jarum byk2. doktor kata, kalau lepas kene injection still tak ok, masuk wad.. wad? what? no! then Alhamdulillah la ok lepas kene injection, doktor kata boleh blk.. aku mmg mintak nak blk pon.. doktor kata ni boleh kene second strike. so mkn ubat. jgn mkn mcm2 sgt. cube elak bende2 yang mungkin sebabkan allergic tu. aku agak yakin aku allergic dgn perencah nasi goreng adabi yang dalam bentuk paste tu. sbb akak aku penah kene. tapi seri aji punye brand. smlm aku bawak bekal lunch aku msk gune bende alah tu la.

aku rindu mak abah. sweet giler lah mereka. aku call bgtau aku kene gatal2 tu. mak dah cuak like glabah2 (ayat paling top thn 2009 by nisa klukkluk). abah apatah lagi. then after dah balik hospital aku call lg. ckp aku dah ok. aku nanges. mak tawu. then die pass suh ckp ngan abah. tapi aku trdgr mak ckp slow kat abah mase nak pass phone tu "die menangis tu". then abah pon bercakap dengan sweetnya. pujuk2. dan berusaha sedaya upaya untuk buat aku ketawa.honestly, he made lame jokes, still i laughed, sbb kalo abah yang buat lawak, aku tak pernah tak gelak. and just because to reassure him that i am definitely doing fine. aku nak kawen orang mcm abah. walau tak kaya, walau tak belajar tinggi2, walau tak se alim mana, tapi hati baik, penuh kasih syg, sanggup buat apa saja untuk aku and syg aku sgt2.. owh ye, ayah aku hensem. (tapi kalo kaya dan berpendidikan agama yang secukupnya, pon boleh dan lagi bagus) .. aku sayang mak abah jugak. sgt2. (pasal kawen tu, aku berniat untuk kawen lambat. aku ade alasan aku sndiri. lantakla andartu ke hape ke kan. tapi aku terima je la kalo dah smpai waktu. tp tlgla eh kepada peminat2 aku di luar sana, tlg bawak2 bersabar eh, i nak enjoy hidup single puas2, nak jaga my parents dulu and bla3. ok, aku bajet aku ramai peminat. ok aku merepek.)

rindu. ah, lambatnye nak blk. benci. nak exam 2nd IA lagi. benci. aku dah la lost. benci.

ah, ape2 jelah. doakan aku cpt2 sihat boleh tak? aku taknak second strike tu boleh tak? bolehla bolehla~

erm, itulah. aku hanya berserah kepada yang ESA. aku ni insan lemah.. hanya mampu berusaha dan berdoa semampu mungkin..

-aku yang mereng-

i'm a good girl i am~

aku rasa, makin lama english aku makin teruk.. damn!

sebab sangat jarang guna..membaca apatah lagi.. asyik baca buku academic.. bosannnnnnnnnnnnnn~
kalo ckp ngan tempe (org tempatan = org india) bukannye perlu sgt nak gune perkataan yg up2, or gune correct grammar.. simple english as long as diorang paham.. itupon tak paham jugak.. (T_T)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

sampah2..

aku dah la suke jugak bahasa penjajah tu.. bahasa melayu pon aku sayang jugak..

"the rain in Spain stays mainly in the plain"

send me professor Higgins please.

dull

it's been a while since i last updated my blog..

i just cant seem to think of any idea..

nowadays, i tend to keep things in my mind and heart instead of letting it out..

aku malas nak cari pasal.

and that is why i think i'm getting duller day by day..

not so loud as i used to be..

i just don't know why..

don't worry i'm doing fine..

i'm still looking and searching for that "something"..

but i'm still not sure what is that "something"

just keep on looking..

surely i'll find it one day..

i just have to be patience and keep on moving..


adios amigos